In this blog, I will narrate an unexpected blessing that came ‘out of the blue’, last year.
Sometimes life presents us with unexpected blessings…
In the midst of the second lockdown, in 2020, I had the most surprising discovery, which was the emergence of my now high pitched singing voice. I have loved female sopranos’ operatic voices for a long time and after watching a young lady sing opera on TV, I was very inspired by her. Her voice sounded so beautiful. I have wanted to be able sing high notes for many years but was not able to do so. One day soon after seeing that young lady sing opera, as I was enjoying trying to sing the same song, suddenly a very high pitched and powerful voice emerged out of my throat. I was totally stunned. I could not believe that this voice had been living inside of me all these years, awaiting expression. I kept singing over and over, not quite believing what I was witnessing, because I clearly have not done any practicing. I recalled that I had done some singing when I was a child and had taken a few singing lessons many years ago, in my early twenties but it was nothing like this.
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The moment that voice came through, it opened my throat chakra and since then I can no longer say that I cannot sing. I did not think I could or would sing, nor did I think I could remember even part of the melodies. I have not attempted to remember whole songs yet but currently learning parts of songs, as and when I feel like it. The extraordinariness of that moment was that I truly realised that everything is truly within us, even if we may not be aware of it. Many of our gifts lay dormant within us for years. You, the reader also have skills and abilities awaiting your discovery…
I have always been focused on spirituality and work and not given much of my life to pleasure. However, now singing for me is pure pleasure. I cannot tell you, the immense enjoyment I derive from singing, especially since there is nothing, I feel I need to do with it. What I mean is, that I am obviously not going to become a professional singer, but nor am I trying to become better and better. I just sing happily, whilst enjoying the act of singing, in the moment that it is happening. I liken it to walking meditation, in which you walk for the sake of walking. It has no other purpose or goal. So, I sing for its own sake and get huge amount of enjoyment from it.
Singing is also similar to meditation in that you have to be very present, to be able to follow the music, lyrics and breathe properly, in order to reach the high notes (at least that is the case for me). I suspect that one of the secrets to the enjoyment is the being in the present moment. Anything done in the present moment releases its magical qualities. In my case, in the midst of the difficulties, restrictions of lockdown and the necessity to practice immense patience, my higher Self provided me with this huge blessing - a singing voice. It is such a beautiful gift because it is simply for me (and my husband and a few friends). I can do it on my own, when cooking or cleaning etc.
The act of singing for me is an outlet for Self (divine) expression. When I allow the sound energy to flow out of my throat, I feel a real sense of freedom and that my Source is infinite intelligence. At that time I am sure that its power lies within me too.
When I hear the voice of a female soprano, it touches me deep in my soul. I feel the perfection of the divine in the voice. For me, it is the energy of the divine, in sound form, which flows through the female soprano and it reaches my soul. In the of listening to such beautiful music and in the act of my own singing, as well as other moments when I am present and connected to the divine, right there is the gift - our own innate bliss. I sometimes wonder how people can argue and fight so much with each other, when there is such beauty within and without. It is such a waste of precious life, when there is such beauty in this world and even more so within ourselves. This inner beauty unveils itself gradually, as we open our heart more and more.
The divine is in all of us
I experience the divine in people, as immense beauty, the beauty of the one Self, which is within all of us. I really wish that people would hear and see without labelling or judging and come purely into the present moment and enjoy the present as it appears, in whatever form. That said, to reach a place of open heartedness, fear needs to be released first and this can take some time.
If people only knew that it is the one formless Self appearing as the diversity of forms and that it is everywhere they look. We have all heard of omnipresence but most of us don’t realise that this omnipresence is everywhere and that it is here and now and all around us. It shows up in every single form, including ourselves.
If you would like to experience the divine in someone, look beyond their physical form, to the place where you are the same, rather than different and then you will be able to feel the underlying reality of oneness with this person or animal. This is the reason I love people and my work so much, I get the opportunity to experience so many different expressions of the divine, in each and every student and client. It makes my work so enjoyable to see students that come for Reiki courses, clients coming for Reiki treatments and also mindfulness and meditation students, heal and awaken to their spirituality. It enables me to form a small part of their spiritual journey.
I feel it is a privilege to welcome all kinds of people, to Living in the Light, who come from many parts of Essex, such as Colchester, Chelmsford, Tiptree, Frinton-on-Sea and Clacton itself and many other nearby areas, in Essex, for mindfulness courses, Reiki courses and Reiki healing treatments and share a heart to heart connection with them. It is not difficult to see our interconnectedness and shared essence. It adds beauty to my work.
In oneness
Katarina Tilley
www.katarinatilley.co.uk